My tears nor plaints would mollify a whit
I didn't deal with my disappointment that well in front of him but I was glad that at least I tried to fight for what I believe in and didn't bottle up. However, nothing got changed. ...
After the exhausting meeting , I had no light in me and couldn't be bother to think of my first ever drama performance today, which I have been trying to keep it really quiet. Only very few people knew about me taking acting class. It took me 9 years to have the courage again to fulfill the dream I always I have. However, after the meeting I just felt nothing. I felt what's the point to even care! Things I worked for and dreamed for never deserve what it deserved. I am gonna sucks. I'll just once again to get proven that I am just not good enough. I'll be let down once again and get disappointed at something I really want.
I txted him, the only person that I wanted to be there, and asked him not to come. I didn't want him to see my failure again. A failure that's really going to burn me hard! And he didn't come.
Today, I live my life like a drama.
Yet he, whose heart is made of adamant or flintsWhen I walked out his office, I was once again very depressed and lost hope. What I have been working so hard for didn't get what it deserved. I still think I deserved better than what he gave to me and he hadn't been a fair supervisor. He apologised to me, but nothing got changed. However, I wasn't looking for getting better grades, but a justification/closure. At least I know I have done anything to justify myself and speak up. The rest (the actual grades I am getting) is easier to let go eventually.
My tears nor plaints would mollify a whit - my drama dialogue
After the exhausting meeting , I had no light in me and couldn't be bother to think of my first ever drama performance today, which I have been trying to keep it really quiet. Only very few people knew about me taking acting class. It took me 9 years to have the courage again to fulfill the dream I always I have. However, after the meeting I just felt nothing. I felt what's the point to even care! Things I worked for and dreamed for never deserve what it deserved. I am gonna sucks. I'll just once again to get proven that I am just not good enough. I'll be let down once again and get disappointed at something I really want.
I txted him, the only person that I wanted to be there, and asked him not to come. I didn't want him to see my failure again. A failure that's really going to burn me hard! And he didn't come.
Today, I live my life like a drama.
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