I Went Solo Officially

My journey started last May and it has been an amazing personal growth for me. It really gets me out of my comfort zone and makes me ever more open and confident. It gives me the opportunity to help others. However, I am humble by every single call which allows me to look at myself more closely. I realised that in order to be available for others, I have to sort out a lot of my own issues and seek for supports. I think the most benefit I get out of Youthline is being truthful to my own emotions and my own process.

I made a lot of mistakes. I got triggered by many circumstances. However, I learned and I improved. I now not only know how to deal with them better in the future, but most importantly I learned to self-care myself.

• I learned to face my darkest demon
• I learned to forgive myself
• I learned to set boundary
• I learned to close my own unfinished businesses
• I learned to put myself prior to others

I still have a lot to learn, but I am really glad that I become solo before my next group starts. It's a nice finishing to be able to give myself the recognition of achieving something significant after working so hard towards this goal last year. Now I am ready for my next learning curve!

The following are where I am at cf. 6months ago:

Strengths:

• Able to bring out underlying issues;
• Very committed to continue her skill development;
• Very committed to empower callers;
• Able to bring out contradictions in callers presentation;
• Build rapport easily and shows compassion and warmth to callers;
• Awareness of own process;
• Good in identifying need for support for self.

Learning edges:

• Keep developing English vocabulary to convey warmth skillfully;
• Monitoring own responsible in crisis calls;
• Continue in learning about referrals;
• Continue to work on finding underlying issues.

"Take it back!" She said after glancing at my strenghts and learning edges sheet. "Have a look! What do you see?"

"There are more learning edges than strengths?" I replied timidly trying to find out what's wrong with it.

"What does that tell you????"
"Oh~It means I am too harsh on myself?" I said without thinking. "Damn! That's ANOTHER learning edge!"

"$@^@#%$&#$......"