Closeness

We become closer but I feel safer than ever. However, the vulnerable emotion came later just before I left for Tauranga on Thursday. You didn't say a word and you were cold. I had no choices but left you alone because I had to and because I thought you needed some space. I was glad that you rose the issue. At least we acknowledged that there are still differences in our cognitions.

When we met again, it was for this fun costume party until 2am. I had fun even sometimes, I felt lonely in the party. It's amazing that when you pretend hard enough to have fun, you can actually start enjoying it more. After you were gone, the emotion hit again. I took out pen and paper and started writing a long letter; a letter I would probably regret to write and send later, but I had to put my thought down or I couldn't sleep.

My eyes are tired and I think I can finally sleep now...

I'm really close tonight
And I feel like I'm moving inside her
Lying in the dark
I think that I'm beginning to know her
Let it go
I'll be there when you call
Whenever I fall at your feet
And you let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

You're hiding from me now
There's something in the way that you're talking
The words don't sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you
Go, I'll be waiting when you call

Whenever I fall at your feet
And you let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

- Fall At Your Feet, Crowded House