In a Dilemma

I went to my new transition group and surprisingly, there was no one from my old group. More than half of group have known each other during their previous trainings. As you may be able to image, it was very intimidating for me. They all share a very strong intimacy, just like my old group and I felt uncomfortably intruding.

It was the first time I looked at the clock every now and then, and hoped it'll be all finishing soon. There were quite a few things to get used to, the different facilitators style, different and shorter time, a much smaller room, new ppl to build the connection with and so on.

In a way, I want to change group, but I would be very disappointed at myself surrendering to obstacles so easier. I believe things happen for a reason. Besides, I love challenges and I am simply stubborn. I know it may not be so bad if I try harder to fit in. After all, they are all Youthline members! Wouldn't it be fantastic to develop that kind of intimacy with more ppl? However, I also recognise the need to develop my skills in a safe and comfortable environment.

I am in this dilemma, which I don't know what's the best for me. However, time is running out, as if I want to change group, I have do it as soon as possible.

It's very stressful and frustrating!