First Love

Orion is the first constellation I loved
even it's so high up in the sky
that I can not have it,
I know it will always be in my heart

Derek: Can I ask you a personal question? Why did you leave Meredith's mother?
Richard: I could have left Adele. I could have gone away with Ellis. But I would have had so much baggage, so much guilt. Ellis couldn't see it, but I wasn't... I would have never made her happy. Not like she was certain to be happy. I was a better man for walking away. I loved her enough to walk away. (Grey's Anatomy, 2007)