Saturday, May 20, 2006

Disclosure the real me

It was such a privilege to be there and felt safe at the same time to share everyone stories. Some have hided them so well and some didn't know what kind of guilt or/and hatred they were bearing and how these have consumed their lives. Everyone was so brave to experience self disclosure and explored their Jo-Hari Window, including me.

I was so proud of myself because I shared something which used to be my darkest/shameful/heavy/disgusting memory in my whole life. I was quite dubious whether or not I was ready to talk about it. However, I didn't feel any sorrow, shame or pain after I shared it. Of course, I also identified another issue waiting for me to deal with next, but I am not afraid of it anymore because I know one day I'll make it okay just like my previous one!

We all are afraid of sharing who we really are because we fear for being vulnerable and being judged or hurt by others. It seems to be so dangerous to disclose some of our personalities truly. However, what I realised today is that things are only big because we think they are big. Once you face it and are able to speak it out loud, it's really nothing. Everyone is the same; we all carry our own burdens and it's us making a big deal out it. The consequences aren't nearly as bad as we imaged it would have been. Sometimes, reality is actually easier to deal with.

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