My Symbols of Power and Love

I came a long way. Over field and forest, over lake and mountain, finally I reached the destination - the cottage with a person waiting inside for me. He was about to hang me the symbols of Power and Love.

First, it was the Power - a delicate little golden key. Then I was left there alone feeling apprehensive/awkward without seeing my Love symbol. Just before I realised what was going on, it hit me hard and unexpectedly - the overwhelming sadness and the searing pain were all enveloping me. I felt breathless with a nearly black red emptiness depressed my chest (For some reason, I can FEEL the colour). It's not quite a visual symbol I was receiving, but a FEELING. It was too much and I nearly cried.

I woke up from my visualisation feeling terrified and puzzled. It was supposed to be a joyful journey to embrace Power and Love. Why was I the only one having such negative feeling? And most of all, What does it mean? Is it the solution of my sorrow?

Then, the message came through...
"I was given a key to love, although it was too heavy and too much for me to carry!"

Still... What does it mean?? I am bugged with the version/feeling I had, but all I can do right now is be with the feeling and hope one day the mystery will reveal itself - albeit maybe it will never.