I just want to sleep

It hurts, it really does and I really want to fight if only I know how. If I fight at least I feel that there is hope, at least I feel I am doing something positive rather than being the mess that I am.

I feel I got hit by a truck or why is it so painful. I just want to sleep forever so I won't feel the tearing pain. I just want to sleep so I can rest from crying, but I can't. When the alcohol wears off, I have to wake up. For a split second, everything seems so peaceful, seem like it was all just a bad dream. However, that peacefulness and relief only last for a split second.

I just want to sleep.