I am not strong

People said that I am strong. Well, I guess so if you consider "tough up" and "stubborn" are the true meanings of being strong. It surprised me that there is this slightness of me not gonna be okay when he is gone. I fooled others, but I have never expected that I would have fooled myself too.

I am not as strong as it seems to be. I have never been. Especially, not in the circle of your arms. Do you judge me? Do you look down on me now? Do you find me less attractive now?