He stabbed her with that foul dagger again

She huddled up as tight as she could so she could feel safer
with the minimum body exposure
She shaked with fear and started sobbing
She didn't know what to do, but hold every single part of her body together.
She felt filthy and she wanted to go home,
but she was too terrified to make any move.
She was dying at the corner that night, frighten!

He said he was sorry and she believed him
She wished it would be all over soon,
coz she knew, next time,
He may kill her.

My tears nor plaints would mollify a whit

I didn't deal with my disappointment that well in front of him but I was glad that at least I tried to fight for what I believe in and didn't bottle up. However, nothing got changed. ...

Yet he, whose heart is made of adamant or flints
My tears nor plaints would mollify a whit - my drama dialogue

When I walked out his office, I was once again very depressed and lost hope. What I have been working so hard for didn't get what it deserved. I still think I deserved better than what he gave to me and he hadn't been a fair supervisor. He apologised to me, but nothing got changed. However, I wasn't looking for getting better grades, but a justification/closure. At least I know I have done anything to justify myself and speak up. The rest (the actual grades I am getting) is easier to let go eventually.

After the exhausting meeting , I had no light in me and couldn't be bother to think of my first ever drama performance today, which I have been trying to keep it really quiet. Only very few people knew about me taking acting class. It took me 9 years to have the courage again to fulfill the dream I always I have. However, after the meeting I just felt nothing. I felt what's the point to even care! Things I worked for and dreamed for never deserve what it deserved. I am gonna sucks. I'll just once again to get proven that I am just not good enough. I'll be let down once again and get disappointed at something I really want.

I txted him, the only person that I wanted to be there, and asked him not to come. I didn't want him to see my failure again. A failure that's really going to burn me hard! And he didn't come.

Today, I live my life like a drama.

I miss you!

He was here and now he is gone.

I suddenly feel very lonely. It has been a while that I have someone to talk to, someone who has know me the longest, who is still around and still care. We spent hours just talk and catch up. It has been years since the last time we chated this long. I have never realised how much I miss him and now he is gone again.

Take care and good luck, my dearest friend.

2 Kiwis + 2 Slovaks

She came, from far-far-away, from my past, from a dreamland, from the best time of my life. It was weird to see someone who I met in a foreign land and to see her in my country as a foreigner herself now.

I learned my lessons and didn't drive through Newmarket three times ...Phew!!! (I really know my city well!! REALLY!). The weather wasn't the best, but it welcome my guest with its most typical way- 4 seasons in one day (or every 10 mins.)

I took her to some of the side streets where isn't very tourist's, but was my personal favourites.
Then all the suddenly, someone shut out,

"Micka!"
What? I haven't let this girl left my sight for the whole day since she arrived this afternoon and there is no way she has make friends in this country already without me noticing. But, what's the chance that there was another girl has as unique name as her? So both of us turn around to find out where did that voice came from?

The next thing I knew was I was in a classic slovak conversation again, just like 2 years ago.

It's his girlfriend.

How strange! This afternoon we were talking about how pity that we didn't know their contact detail in Auckland, and here we go, we met his slovak girlfriend in the middle of nowhere!!!The two kiwis, who met the two lovely slovak girls in BB, brought the two slovak girls to the kiwiland. And those two slovak girls found each other in this 1 million ppl city! What a story!

I was so happy to be in Slovak conversations again where I had no idea what's going on!! We had some wine at this very lived Greek bar with music and dancing. We talked about Slovakia, New Zealand, past and future, at present until so late that I had to take her home as she was flying out tomorrow to queenstown again!

I had so much fun today catching up with my past and sharing it with my present life. Soon, I am going to do it all over again with the German Machine!!!