Lunches

I felt slightly uncomfortable when she brought me her home-made lunch on Monday for real. But I have never expected that her innocent-naive new buddy would go down the same path and let me get my own way - hand-made my lunch too :P I felt really embarrassed about it when he gave me his fresh made sandwiches :$ See, I still have a little bit of conscience (for a little while before the evil eroded me)

I should really stop bullying my colleagues, eh? But I just can't say no to free lunch, can I? :P

So far, we have squeezed a birthday chocolate cake out of another new colleague this Monday, and today I have also successfully extorted a free lunch. Those poor fresh meat better learn their lessons quick because we obviously have no mercy on them :P I have no guilt to be part of these scams and take the initiative to take care/integrate/blackmail those new commers, as long as they leave my buddy alone. :P

My Addiction

I made a pact with the angel, but I broke it during the weekend coz I was too bored. Sometimes, I think I am addicted to the pain. It's the only reason I could think of why I keep doing things that can only hurt myself! Maybe they are right - Because it feels so good when I stop (Gray's Anatomy,2005).

Now, I am cellphoneless again.

Chocolate Fountain! Turkey!!

I got chocolate all over my jacket, but it was all worth it. Mmmm.....Chocolate Fountain!!!! 12 kg of melt chocolate with fruits and marshmallows. Ohhooo.....It was just like heaven!! It is not it!! There is more!!!! With my proud messy chocolate jacket, I then went to my first ever Thanksgiving Dinner. It was sooooo yummmmmm!!!!! The turkey, the pumpkin pie, the paella, the almost-Greek-bread etc etc etc....

It was a glory day for my stomach!!!!

Humour v.s. Insult

I have never been good at giving negative feedback to others because I have always been a people pleaser; nice, they call me. Thus, I tend to bottle up my anger rather than express it. However, this time I found the need to express my feeling truly. Thus, I told them that I wasn't amused and I didn't think those hurtful commons were necessary. I was quite impressed with myself that I decided to do something different this time, because it really brought my colleagues and I closer. (Humm....it may have something to do with me sending those emails at one o'clock in the morning after my X'mas party, but it was the only time I was free. Maybe that's why they took me so seriously...:P)

This incident really get me to think not only how I deal with my anger, but also the thin line between "being funny" and "hurting someone else feeling". Early this week, a friend of mine kindly told me that she disliked the way I mocked at her. I appreciated her honesty deeply and I sincerely feel sorry for what I did. I have been on both ends that I have hurt someone and have also been hurt by unintentional jokes. Now, I am extremely carefully when I make fun of ppl and I still contemplating to find that right balance to be a truly fun person to be around.

Wayne

I am not a Christian, but I was very moved by this poem, just like how I was deeply touched by Wayne's strength, courage and spirit.

It has been an honour to meet you, Wayne. The time we spent was brief, but truly inspirational.

You struggle no longer, the Answer to our prayers,
Stripped from our lives, your death was our fears.
You fight no longer for time in this life,
A house to have, to hold, a wife.
Oh how vain are these things, in light of His will,
Against our understanding, the old you lay still.
A trying time for your strength and your faith.
Glorifying, all times you put God in His place.
A man I cannot outgrow, a man now without age,
An inspiration you'll be, til my very last page.
I thank you, Brother, on behalf of all learnt,
Your spirit never dull, by God's love you burned.
Our bodies are made to last a lifetime,
But Wayne, with your soul,
What body would contain?
What body would hold?

- Laban Cole

Follow up to the Closure of Anita Entertainment Ltd

With my best friend *pause* TV still in ICU, I can only sort of listening to it, rather than watching it. However, it's okay as I have been an expert in listening to TV with years experience since I was a kid! Oh....my good old time! Sneaking behind my parents back and secretly tuning my radio to listen in TV at my room was my biggest enjoyment back then, so was my school friends'. Why? Because I would spend the rest of the week storytelling them the weekly soap drama during every lunch time - the early "Anita entertainment Ltd". All you need is good imagination and creativity and then you can enjoy TV blindly!!

I went to my "retail therapy" today and I couldn't resist the temptation to admire those colour, non-twisted, steady, and workable televisions. I can't remember how long I was standing in front of those televisions but I have never felt so completed since I lost my best friend. *sniff* *sniff* It was a moment of joy and proud!! I almost forget that there could be colours on TV!!! That's how sad it was!!!!

"You listen to the TV over ICU? Anita you need help :-P"

Firework

It was really exciting to see others burning money. Well, that's my definition of firework anyway :P

I guess there was a reason why I was only allowed to play sparklers. What a discrimination!! Never mind. After I showed my dedication by burning my finger, they finally let me play with those big bang fireworks - Very impressive, but so overrated as it only last few seconds (Hum....like many other things....:P)

Car

I learned how to change tyres and washed my car this afternoon!

Anything gets me not to study, eh?

Fairy Tales

Let's believe in fairy tales again - together.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

- Meredith, Grey's Anatomy (2005)

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

- Meredith, Grey's Anatomy (2005)