Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I survived Lake Waikaremoana...Just!

It was an remarkable weekend in many levels - physically and emotional!

I cracked down in tear before the weekend even started it. There were just too many issues to handle, but it's amazingly how we can turn all that to a beginning of a beautiful long weekend. He was right about the dead rat - "Would you eat a dead rat now or in a week's time? No, you don't want to eat a dead rat at all, but the sooner the better!"

The group consists of 3 American, 1 Canadian, 2.5 kiwis, 1 Aussie, 1 Indian, 0.5 Taiwanese. We left around 5pm on Friday and arrived the camp site just before midnight.

The tramp was really challenging for me, especially uphill! On Sunday, the weather was horrible. It was wet, raining, gusty wind, hailing and SNOWING! It was the 19 km, 11 hour tramp with steep muddy 3 hour, uphill climbing 1100m above sea level! One of our teammate even suffered hypothermia when they arrived the hut at 6pm and they had to use body heat to warm her up! The second group with me being the weakest link, reached the hut at 7:15pm, just before it got dark. I barely made it, but I was so lucky to have the "Orange Mark" team support me and had all the right borrowed tramping gear. The next day, an woman from the other group said to me
"You look much better this morning. Last night when you came in you looked like you were in shock!"

On Monday, it all cleared up and it was magnificent scenery!!! I thought it was going to be down hill, so I was fool enough to say: Let's sing because now I can join in. Right after I said that, it was a long UPHILL :( - ONCE! Then I saw down hill! I thought it has to be it, so I said: Look at that beautiful scenery! Let's do it (the whole tramp) again! Right after I said that, it was another LONG UPHILL :( - TWICE. The third time, I saw down hill, I kept it quiet and whispered to other: Let's just get this done with.

I enjoy the evening time. After a long day hike, it was such a luxury to be in the shelter, in dry warm cloth and have some warm food. We had no lights nor shower. Everything was very basic, but I felt rich. I felt I had everything I wanted in life - laugher, singing, feeling alive, warm cloth, warm food, birthday cake, people I care for and people who care for me.

I have no voice now - not from singing or laughing, but more likely from the heavy breath, I am exhausted, my muscle are sore - which I didn't realise I have them, but I feel great! Being close to the nature and around the Lord-of-Ring-ish forest make me feel so ALIVE!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

What we tried to achieve is so challenging that both he and I felt like resigning today :(

Now I think I'm so lucky that I didn't get his job :)

Friday, October 17, 2008

New Role

I have been enjoying my new role. My direct boss has showed a lot of encouragement and appreciation of my performance and opinions. I'm so glad to have him as my boss and I work better when I know my effort is appreciated. We respect each other and we make a great team. I don't even mind doing background read during my spare time. That's how much I enjoy my new job!

Today we had a frustrating meeting with all the big bosses. Everyone came with their agenda and expectation and nothing really get done from my perspective. I can see my direct boss was as frustrated as I was and I jumped in to try to save him (us) and get everyone back to our interests. However, it didn't work :( After everyone left, we had a chat and confirmed that we felt the same about the meeting. He encouraged me to continue doing what I was doing disregard the meeting.

I like my boss!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Goodbye Tauranga

I feel sad about leaving TGA this week. Everything I do, I know it's for the last time...for a long while. I am going to miss the people and the lifestyle, especially the two min to work bit! However, my phone didn't feel the same, it went back to Auckland already!!! (I left it in the site visit car!) What's worse was that the guy who took the car is on leave until 4th of November!!!!

I really appreciate the opportunity to work in Tauranga in the last 7 weeks. I have learned a lot of traffic engineering which was what I was hoping to pick up during my stay here. Besides, it has been a great experience to work closely with different disciplines such as planning, geotech, and storm water and feel my opinion matter. I am going to miss the new friends I made and the lifestyle in Tauranga a lot. However, at the same time, I am looking forwards to the new role and new challenge!

I said goodbye in style! I promised myself that I had to do up-down and up-down of the Mount before I leave. I thought I had more time to do the training, but nah, so I had to it today. I walked up, rolling down, crawled up and falling down, but I did it!! So proud of myself!!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Breathe In Breathe Out

I finally "CHOOSE" to come back to Auckland this weekend (Oh well, I lied. There is a meeting on Monday that I have to attend to, but I did want to spend the weekend in Auckland rather than being told so in the last minute!)

We went for a long stroll in my backyard on Saturday - From Caster bay to Browns Bay. It was a beautiful day and it's so nice to enjoy the sun, breeze and smell the flowers. I run into him on the walk, who was taking his parents for a picnic. His mum was so friendly that I was a bit surprised when she hugged me and kissed me on the cheeks :#

After lunch we chased the bus hard and was very lucky to get on it just on time! Phew~ We quickly freshed up ourselves and then went to a birthday do. Again we were having fun outdoor and doing a couple of 'weird' games in Tahaki reserve :)

Today was a resting day for me to have a little space for myself to sort out some chores, but having him around :). I feel fully charged now! Tomorrow, I have to go to a kick-off breakfast at 6:30 AM and also a meeting.

Breathe in, breathe out
Tell me all of your doubts
Everybody bleeds this way, just the same
Breathe in, breathe out
Move on and break down
If everyone goes away, I will stay
We push and pull
And I fall down sometimes
And I�m not letting go
You hold the other line
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
- Breathe In Breathe Out, Mat Kearney

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Souvenir from Tauranga

I blamed the pay day, but I was so tempting to walk out this shop with 2 bags, 1 sunglass and 1 wallets! It probably has more to do that I am leaving Tauranga soon and I feel like getting some souvenir out of this pleasant working holiday.

"Go on! Tell them the truth. It's because I'm moving down to Tauranga, so you want to run away and go back to Auckland" He said and we all laughed.

Then, he turned around with a paper on his hand,
"I don't blame her. I resigned straight away once I heard that you are coming!"

My AMA journey...

It goes something like this...

Brilliant Interview 8/Sep
He had great faith on me and push me to the level that I didn't know that I was capable reaching. It was an exhausting one and half hour interview, but I was glad with the outcome and many times I surprised at how much I have learned in the last 2 years.

Apparently, I did so well at interview that he started throwing curve balls half way through to demonstrate to the other interviewee my capability - a more senior role that I wasn't applying. He has put my name forwards to the Alliance to consider me as a candidate. I would be really keen on taking up that challenge if that happens! It's going to be a huge responsibility and will be outside of my comfort zone, but I know I'll have great support from people around me even it's a big step up for me. That's why I am so excited about the opportunity and really thrilled. No matter what's the outcome, I really appreciate his support and being taking interests in my career.

Disappointing Result 12/Sep
I had my hope up so much that when I was told I got the job, I was really disappointed even I had the job I applied for. On top of that, I found out that he also got in AMA too. I had a big cry after a thoughtful caring phone call, and then I was as good as new!

Sleepless Night 16/Sep
I couldn't sleep because I couldn't bare the thought to work under him!

Jumping with Joy 17/Sep
At workshop, I found out that he is NOT my boss and we are not even in the SAME TEAM!!!!!

AMA v.s. TGA dilemma 18/Sep~26/Sep
As 1st of October getting close, there are pressure to get me on board with AMA asap to strength the team. My future bosses have put down the deadline as 13/Oct. I understand their perspective and I want to be there too. However, on the other hand ,the ideal date for me to start on the AMA if it was agreeable would be 3rd November. In that case, I would have spent 2 months in Tauranga at that stage making the exercise more worthwhile for both me and the team in Tauranga as well. And of course, I love the life style here. I haven't got fed up with Tauranga yet.

Verdict 30/Sep
After battling to delay my start date with AMA, I still have to cut my stay here short :( Thus, this coming Friday will be my last day. Very gutted, Very disappointed, Very Sad. I tried to list all the pro's and con's on both Auckland and Tauranga. I think Tauranga had 8 pro's when Auckland had only 2 :( (But they are important to me)

Yes, no, maybe. I don't know. Can you repeat the question?

You're not the boss of me now, you're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not do big.
You're not the boss of me now, you're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now and you're not so big.

Life is unfair . . .
- Boss of me, "Malcolm in the Middle" Theme Song