AucklandSick

I am missing Auckland already even I am still sitting at my North Shore home. Really, I should work on my job application, but updating my blog seems more important than anything else at the moment.

The place I am staying in Tauranga seems nice - King Size Bed, Sky TV, Gym, Spa, service apartment, 2 mins walk from work etc. It all sounds exciting and promising with new challenges, new office, new colleagues, and new environment. However, even I hate to admit that I'll be bored, I think I'll be a bit lonely.

I miss you already.

狡兔

三窟！

I am so cunny!! ;)

I have kept finding excuses not to call her because I didn't know how to talk to someone who has just been through a lot of operations after a serious car crash. Fortunately, she made it all so easy. She was in a good spirit and was really honest about her progress - all the good and bad, all the sadness, pain, struggles, thankfulness and joys.

She is an inspiration for all the people around her! :)

May love, prayers, good vibes and healing energy be with you, brave woman!

It had been two months since I was in the hub. I was feeling a little bit apprehensive, especially I wasn't buddying up with anyone and it was late at night.

I had a girl and I feel really humble afterward. There isn't too many chances in life that one can talk to the old oneself and I was lucky to do so tonight. She made me realised that I have come a long way living with my stubbornness and high expectations, and suffering from my guilt and demon.

I was in great agitation after I put down the phone as I felt that it was such a privilege to give that hope to someone who is struggling in a similar way as I used to be. Now, coming out from the other end of the tunnel, I was able to sympathy and to give her my rapport. I meant every single word that I said to her and I was talking to the old me too. My words were powerful and important to me as I reinforced and validated my own success in my own journey. Once again, I always got out a lot from the call.

重圓

I don't know how I did it, but things used to bug me tremendously are no longer trouble me. Really, I don't need to know or want to analysis how I could let go. The important thing is I have moved on from the rough patch and feel solid, secure and happy again.

May the myseteous 080808 infinity power be with you too :D

破鏡

Life starts getting better for me. Everything is still running in a circle, but it's in an double helix style i.e. even it feels like I am running in a circle, it does move up (Gee...I must be a good modeller!). However, those negative things said in the holiday are still fermenting and troubling me. They are hurtful not because they are hard to accept, but because I don't think they should be the issues and that breached my limit for tolerance as the same as those negative things added up to be a big negative for him. I really want to move on, but I am still struggling to do so, so I have decided to go down to Tauranga for 3 months to have some fresh air and hopefully learning few new things and find out wether 破鏡重圓 or 破鏡難圓.

Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy-forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts-short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild-yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action-feel the attraction
Color my hair-do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free-yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!

- Shania Twain, Man, I feel like a woman